Monday, June 25, 2007

thoughts

hey all.
its a monday
everyone starts school
and for the first time i feel pretty empty at home
no one's around
its just me and the tv and my ciggarettes

anyways,
things have changed
i have changed
i try changing for the benefit of others
then again would this be me
or would the old me be me?

i try to fit in
i try to meet with ur demands
but please dont make it seem like i dont care
like i dont bother to make sure youre okay
im sorry if i fail at times
or that i dont reach ur expectations
im sorry that i dont have a perfect past
im sorry i screwed up like shit
but i seriously dont think that talkin bout it time and time again is gonna help any of us

yes i know truth hurts
and reality bites
i say it all the time
i see happening always
but i guess once in a while we've gotta look over it

i once passed a blog that said something like
we shouldnt be living in the present yet still having thoughts of the past
cause that way we'd never move on
we'll constantly think bout it that it'll kill us sooner or later
yes the memories, it stays
yes the pain, it lingers
yes the emotions, it occurs once in while

ive come to the final bend
i no longer know what to do or say
i try to cover it up over and over again
not to mention anything
but still certain things that happen might spark you to think bout it
theres really nothing i can do then

am i giving up
just letting things be the way they are?
or am i just gonna keep it in till one day i might just explode

yes it hurts to see the pain
the words
the actions
its all been said and done
i cant turn back time
i apologise
but what is it that you want me to do

those words that comes out frm the mouth
the body language that comes with it
it hits me hard
just so yawl know
but knowin where i stand,
i'll just take it in



[see past my flaws and all]

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